It is my birthday today, and I have a bad case of the blues. I am not ready to turn 26. And it seems God has not answered my prayers to have a 25 re-do.
I haven’t felt like this about a birthday since I was turning 22. At 22, I was panicking about graduating college and leaving that life. I also had major anxiety about where life would take me and what was ahead.
22 year old me thought writing on myself was super cool.
Coincidentally, I am freaking out about turning 26 because I am not where my 22 year old self thought I would be at this age.
When I was 22, I knew that by the time I was 26 I would have this fabulous lifestyle. I would be married, living in a beautiful home that I had purchased, driving my Acura, buying Jimmy Choo shoes once a quarter (yes, I actually thought I would be able to buy Jimmy Choo shoes once a quarter for the new season ahead), and overall be happy with all aspects of my life.
So what the hell was the 22 year old version of me thinking?! Although I do have a great life…I am not married, not a homeowner, still driving my 2005 Ford Escape (no offense Scapey! I still love you very much), and I am not an owner of Jimmy Choo shoes anymore. Why? Because I sold them on eBay to make extra money!!!
I realize that I have a great life, and I have accomplished many things. I have amazing family, awesome friends, a Boston Qualifying Marathon time, a good job, a solid clothing and accessory collection, and many other things. But I am still singing the blues today.
Cheers to a year that MUST be a good one.
Hopefully throughout this day I will snap out of it. But if not, there is always tomorrow…which thankfully is just another day! And my first adventure in pacing a half marathon.
Thanks as always for listening to my rambles, and especially for listening to this cry – baby post.
Wishing you an awesome weekend ahead!
Ali
Happy Birthday! Life is an adventure, that’s what makes it awesome and liveable. If we all would know, where we would be in a few years, it would be pretty boring. Enjoy your day!
Happy Birthday! I hope that you had an awesome day despite having a wee case of the birthday blues. Have a great time tomorrow pacing the race! What an incredible experience.
Happy Birthday!! I love this post. It’s really interesting to think about where you thought you would be versus where you actually are. Kind of scary!